to believe in the inherent goodness of mankind is like providing tangible proof of a god if we learn from our mistakes then why are these lessons the very nails that are driven into our arms to keep us in plainview and to keep us on display. Our existence is the punchline to the joke of our accidents. we are treated as if we knew our faults would persecute us. Because life is not a trial run and trial and error is not good enough because we can never be as perfect as the hypocrites proclaim themselves to be. They fit into their societal molds that are shared by each and every one of them. The word individuality has lost all denotation. instead it is the very crime that punishes free thinkers and free spirits because it means not adhering to what the elite suggest. Aimless they glide through life never reaching the target, unsatisfied, their life is unfulfilled, so they find a substitution. Bullseye dead one straight through the soul, but they never knew, because they dont understand, because they cant comprehend what it is to have feelings and what it is to have failings and how can their soul be anything when it was sold?
I WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday November 19th @ The Chance Complex [The Chance, The Loft & Club Crannell] in Poughkeepsie, NY
Rhythmden 10 Year Anniversary Fest
SHAI HULUD CONVERGE DARKEST HOUR THE RED CHORD MUNICIPAL WASTE ROBOTS & EMPIRE NORA NERVE GAS TRAGEDY THE NUMBER 12 LOOKS LIKE YOU FROM A SECOND STORY WINDOW DROWNING MAN *** CANCELLED *** FIGHT PARIS THE BLACKOUT PACT ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE SUBZERO IRATE 100 DEMONS WALLS OF JERICHO BOY SETS FIRE MODERN LIFE IS WAR WITH HONOR THE BANNER THE DISTANCE MY BITTER END THE IMAGINE MABUS
$25 in advance Tickets on sale now at The Chance Box Office: 845 471 1966 And at all Ticketmaster locations, including online right here Doors @ 2:00pm
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SET TIMES:::
in CLUB CRANNELL
THE BLACKOUT PACT 2:30-2:50 FIGHT PARIS 3:00-3:20 ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE 3:30-3:50 THE BANNER 4:00-4:25 MABUS 4:35-5:00 IRATE 5:10-5:35 MODERN LIFE IS WAR 5:45-6:15 THE NUMBER 12 LOOKS LIKE YOU 6:25-6:55 FROM A SECOND STORY WINDOW 7:05-7:45 ***SHAI HULUD in THE CHANCE*** 7:45- 8:30 BOY SETS FIRE 8:30- 9:00
in THE LOFT
THE IMAGINE 3:00-3:30 THE DISTANCE 3:40-4:10 SUBZERO 4:20-4:50 WITH HONOR 5:00-5:30 MY BITTER END 5:40-6:10 1OO DEMONS 6:20-6:50 WALLS OF JERICHO 7:00-7:30
in THE CHANCE
NERVE GAS TRAGEDY 3:30-4:00 NORA 4:10-4:40 ROBOTS AND EMPIRE 4:50-5:20 MUNICIPAL WASTE 5:30-6:00 THE RED CHORD 6:10-6:40 DARKEST HOUR 6:50-7:20 ***INTERLUDE*** 7:30-7:40 SHAI HULUD 7:45-8:30 CONVERGE 9:00-10:00
This entry is dedicated to MY BESTEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD: Paul and Sarah
"Take my eyes. And you will see what pulled me from my ignorance. Sight. See this. See us. See us. See us. I can only feel this around you and no one else. I have searched for a sympathy. I have searched for a brace to lean on. And now you're my only brace, and yet I stand so tall. You would pick me up if I'd fall, you would carry me. Our great ascension. We're one in the same. On that mountain and on that beach. We watched the sun rise, we watched our lives. Come so far. Together. And now your my only brace and yet I stand so tall. You would pick me up if I'd fall, you would fall with me. Our great ascension. We're one in the same. The love that you return to me (this is for my friends) It's more vital than the blood pumping through my heart."
THANK YOU SOOO MUCH FOR CONTINUALLY ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT! I LOVE YOU GUYS UNCONDITIONALLY SO MUCH YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!!!! <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
being stressed and sad and lonely make me depressed which makes me eat more which make me even fatter than i already am which makes me even more depressed than i already am.....
so im really stressed out right now... and need someone to talk to... but no one seems to be there for me to just dump eveyrthing on them... i have 2 exams tomorrow... biology and spanish... i havent been reading tha chapters in bio which are 25+ pages each... which means not only do i have to read the last 3 chapters of bio... but i have to read notes and like familiarize my self with everything...including memorizing photosynthesis...problem is... i have no motivation to study.... whatsoever... i just got back from the rink.. i skated horribly... my hip is hurting me alot... and i feel liek a fat slob... my program sucks... and i have a competition this weekend... im not friends wiht any of the girls on the team... so its gonna suck even more especially when im gonna be riding on a bus for 6+ hours to ithaca ny.. wooh!... plus to add to all of this fucking nj drama had to take up time i could have devoted to studying... and has to lower my self esteem even more than it is... and not only thata but it kept me up til 3am... 3 hours of sleep bc i had calculus this morning... so im so beat i just want to pass out and go to sleep!!!.... and not only that but the beginning of the week i spent a lot of time researching art schools and i was so proud of myself...and happy wiht my progress...until my mom had to tear down all my efforts and make me feel like shit and that all my work was worthless bc im not pickin the right schools.... gah... IM GONNA BE UP ALL NIGHT....
i feel like breaking down and sitting on the dirty floor in my empty room and sobbing all night....
my computer is broken... the drivers are deleted and some how got messed up..therefre my printer doesnt work and since my audio driver are deleted i cant listne to music... or go on wireless...or d oanything.... i just got this laptop end of august and sweeped it and ran norton every day!!!! i dont know how this happened... yet i am very upset!
so anyone who really knows me... knows i love abandoned buildings... and taking it even further... photographing and exploring abandoned buildings... so being away from home hasnt kept me from this... though there arent many "weird DE" sites... i have come across one....
so...me my love and two friends from DE went exploring the inside of it yesterday night... and today i went back and took some exterior shots... i had class so i hadnt any time for interior shots... but dont worry =)
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